Happy First Day of Winter and....DADDYS BIRTHDAY!!!

my dad has the lucky coincidense of sharing a birthday with the first day of winter! Fun huh?!! I didnt get to see my daddy on his birthday, he lives so far away:( BUT.... I love you dad and happy birthday!!

less then a week till christmas...

First Trimester in Review....

*October 24th- did some continuing education (you know, continuing from that bachelors degree that i have) and went to an all day Childbirth Education Day and Doula Training at OSU-OKC...came home, having birth and babies on the brain, thought i would take a pregnancy test. It was POSITIVE (i truly had NO idea!). Called jake, told him to come home NOW!! Showed him the test!! cried, got crazy excited, prayed...and then went to a birthday dinner for my father-in-law... we could have burst at any point during dinner!!! I was (to the day) 4 weeks pregnant.

*October 26th- We could not wait any LONGER!!! Called my parents...told them the news!! then got iron on letters from michael's and made shirts. Mine said "baby" down at my belly, and jakes said "baby daddy"...wore them over to dinner at jake's parents...all parents were incredibly excited!! but we told them, not to tell anyone until i was 6 weeks along. No one liked that idea ;)

*October 24th~November 21st- lived day by day in fear that we would lose the baby like last time.

*November 2nd- none of us could wait any longer!! started "telling" people. I was 5weeks 2 days.

*November 7th- this is the day equivalent to when we miscarried our first baby. We slept in...stayed in our PJ's all day...rented the entire first season of the HBO series "big love"... did nothing all day!! made it through the day with baby still in tow :) I was 6 weeks.

*November 11th- first midwife appointment!! Very nervous that we would hear bad news, but excited to hear good news!! Gave 5 viles of blood, peed in a cup, meet our lovely midwife, fell in LOVE with her and had an ultrasound. Found a teeny tiny baby but no "for sure" heart beat :( no fun! Still not really having any symptoms and not feeling "pregnant" yet it all made me kinda sad....but still having faith in God's plan, we trekked on, baby and I :) I was 6 weeks 4 days.

*fast forward about 3 days after our first appointment....morning sickness....wait...ALL DAY sickness....

*thoughts on morning sickness....SUCKS...ohh and a LIE! right at about 7 weeks is when it hit and it went strong for 3 weeks straight... funny thing is...morning was the only time i felt ok. It would start at about 11am, continue the rest of the day, and be super super bad from about 5:30 on, until i woke up the next morning. for a good 2 weeks all I ate was Sprite, Saltines, Popsicles and Ramen Noodles, thank goodness for vitamins!

*November 21st- back to my midwife's office to confirm a heartbeat...we saw it "loud" and clear!! Jake said he could even see the different valves of the heart while beating! I cried, Ann(our midwife) gave me a big hug and told me to go enjoy thanksgiving knowing that we have a healthy baby! I was 8 weeks.

*November 27th- Thanksgiving!! First day in about 2 weeks that i felt like eating! ~side note, thank you baby for picking thanksgiving, the day you give be a break~
I was 8 weeks 6 days.

*Starting to feel a bit better, cravings started around 9.5 weeks (i cant remember exactly) list of cravings so far...biscuits and gravy, Reese's peanut butter cup cereal, mashed potato's, apple cobbler and ice cream, fazoli's spaghetti, olive gardens salad...

*December 4th~7th- went on a girls trip with my mom to branson.....3 momentous things happened on this trip...I did not feel sick once!!! I stopped being able to button my jeans!!! and extreme fatigue kicked in gear big time...i had hardly any energy, i was asleep by 8:30 every night, and needed a nap pretty much everyday...this continued on even after the trip. I was 10 weeks.

*Had a break from feeling sick from about week 10 to week 11. then starting sunday of week 11 i threw up for the first time....i threw up every day during week 11. it always happend between 11am and noon...yuk!!

*December 18th- our 4 year anniversary. Since we decided not to go anywhere for our anniversary (to save money and because i didn't want to be sick the whole time on a trip). We both took the day off just to spend with each other. Jake made me and baby french toast, we got massages, and just loved on each other all day, that evening was the Crossings Christmas staff party. So we pretended that Crossing threw us a big anniversary party :)

*December 19th- 12 WEEKS!!!! we made it to 12 WEEKS!!!! all the stress and worry can disappear and we can truly start getting so so excited! although i am still feeling sick through the day, we are just praying it wont last the whole pregnancy! We slept in, went out to breakfast then headed off to OU for my 12 week appointment(ohhh and threw up right when we got there, luckly i made it to the bathroom). I gained and lost weight all through the first trimester, but total from beginning to end i gained 2 pounds which is at the lower end of the average (2-5lbs is average). and we were able to hear the heart beat! At first when we were listening for the heart beat, you could hear mine right away, then about 20 seconds later....a much much much faster heart beat!! it was in the 150 bpm range. I can not explain to you how amazing it was to hear my heart beat and our baby's heart beat, beating simultaneously! AMAZING!! We chatted with Ann a bit, she told me that the reason i have been throwing up is most likely due to the fact that i am not eating enough between 7am (when i eat breakfast) and 12:45pm (when i eat lunch). that my blood sugar drops and i get sick. I eat almonds at work, but she told me to add string cheese or boiled eggs and that should help. She wished us a merry christmas and a happy new year and told me we will see her again at 16 weeks:)

TA-DA!!

why I married Jacob, 4 years ago today...

*we still miss each other while we are away at work.
*we still miss each other when we are in different rooms.
*he calls me all day just to see what i am doing.
*he loves me faithfully and unconditionally.
*he loves Jesus more then me!
*he doesn't mind that i don't like to snuggle when i sleep.
*he is a master of the grill/smoker.
*he looks good in his jeans.
*he looks even better without them.
*he completely supports (and sometimes is even more passionate them me) my crusades...natural birth, cloth diapering, recycling, living debt free, etc...
*he is a good provider.
*he loves his mother.
*he loves MY mother.
*he tells me that I'm beautiful.
*he makes me feel beautiful.
*he is my best friend.
*he not only puts up with it, but he loves my ever-changing mind.
*he is my baby daddy.
*he cooks for me....and he is good at it!
*and so many more to ever mention!!!!

my love, happy 4 year anniversary....i love you to the moon!!!!

4 years of loving each other....

check out our baby countdown....

Less then two hundred days to go!!!!!.....weird!!!

where the hell is matt?...

I have seen this video 3 or 4 times on other blogs, and it is actually quite popular (over 13 million views on you tube!!) But every time i watch it i cry...its a happy cry...and I'm not really sure why i cry...just see for yourself...


Where the Hell is Matt? (2008) from Matthew Harding on Vimeo.

*make sure to turn my music off...

GIVE IT TO ME!!!!....

1-2-3 catch up ...

1)The day after thanksgiving we went over to my in-laws to eat left overs...rhonda happen to catch this moment with Deuce(rhonda and steves wiener dog), Snuggles(heathers pitbull), and Annabelle(our little fuzz ball ;) hoping to get a little morsel ;) I promise this was NOT choreographed!

2)Mom and i went on a girls trip to branson this weekend...We saw some great Christmas shows!! We went to a "dinner, Christmas lights tour", The Branson Belle showboat, and the Dixie Stampede...they were all so fun!! And thank you Jesus i did not feel sick the whole time!!! Im pretty sure my sickness has worn off!! *knock of wood!*


3)I know its a little late...but baby is the size of a Kumquat this week :)
this is what is happening with our little bean...How your baby's growing:
Though he's barely the size of a kumquat — a little over an inch or so long, crown to bottom — and weighs less than a quarter of an ounce, your baby has now completed the most critical portion of his development. This is the beginning of the so-called fetal period, a time when the tissues and organs in his body rapidly grow and mature.

He's swallowing fluid and kicking up a storm. Vital organs — including his kidneys, intestines, brain, and liver (now making red blood cells in place of the disappearing yolk sac) — are in place and starting to function, though they'll continue to develop throughout your pregnancy.

If you could take a peek inside your womb, you'd spot minute details, like tiny nails forming on fingers and toes (no more webbing) and peach-fuzz hair beginning to grow on tender skin.

In other developments: Your baby's limbs can bend now. His hands are flexed at the wrist and meet over his heart, and his feet may be long enough to meet in front of his body. The outline of his spine is clearly visible through translucent skin, and spinal nerves are beginning to stretch out from his spinal cord. Your baby's forehead temporarily bulges with his developing brain and sits very high on his head, which measures half the length of his body. From crown to rump, he's about 1 1/4 inches long. In the coming weeks, your baby will again double in size — to nearly 3 inches.

i was tagged!!

8 things tag!


8 TV shows I love to watch
1. Lost
2. The Office
2. So you think you can dance
3. Fringe
4. Americas funnies videos
5. Law & Order SVU
6. NCIS
7. The today show
8. The Bonnie Hunt show


8 Favorite Restaurants (no order, it just depends on what sounds good)
1. Casa Perico
2. Olive Garden
3. Iron Star
4. Taco Bueno
5. Jason's Deli
6. Johnnies
7. Paseo Grill
8. Eskimo Joe's



8 Things that Happened This Weekend:
1. satisfied a biscuit and gravy craving
2. saw my mommy, daddy and brother
3. received a baby blanket my grandma made
4. ate 3 thanksgiving meals
5. watched "the business of being born"...again
6. fell asleep to the OU-OSU game
7. stained (because i cant color) my hair closer to my natural color
8. Put up Christmas decorations


8 Things I Look Forward To
1. our 4 year anniversary (12-18)
2. meeting this little person inside me!
3. Paying off our house
4. Jake coming home from work everyday
5. lost starting up again (1-21)
6. having a big pregnant belly :)
7. Jakes 28th birthday and new years (same day)
8. mom and I's trip to branson this weekend!



8 Things on my Wish List (For Xmas?)
1. video camera
2. my baby to be here (except not really...he/she needs to cook a lot longer ;)
3. boppy pregnancy pillow
4. no more lives torn apart
5. that wars would never start
6. time would heal all hearts
7. every man would have a friend
8. right would always win
9. that love would never end (i had to add a #9 to finish it ;)



8 People I Tag
1. Heather Seaton
2. Stephanie Kramer
3. Kim Hough
4. Lauren Schatzel
5. Emma Krueger
6. Lindsey Boyls
7. that's all I got ;)
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